The unrequited

Hey,

Another day, another thing to rant about. The topic of today is unrequited feelings. I'm not going to say love because personally I don't think you have to believe you are in love with someone to be hurt when you know they don't return your feelings.

There is a guy, an amazing guy, who is in my life at the moment, but not in the way I want him to be in my life. He has always been a friend, the sort of friend you see every couple of months and whose company you enjoy but who you aren't that close to. Then, he was having problems with his girlfriend and he needed someone to talk to, someone to help him sort out what he was feeling. I was there and I'd like to think I was a good friend. I helped him out and he realised that the relationship he was in was over. I didn't think of him as anything more than a friend at that stage.

Since then I see him at last twice most weeks and we speak basically everyday. Slowly but surely I've begun to develop feelings for him. I can't help it and now I'm struggling to hide it. He is gorgeous looking, something I've always admitted in a kind of distant way and only recently have started to fully appreciate. But it's not how he looks, it's his personality, his sweetness, his sense of humour. It all comes down to how well we mesh together. He isn't perfect. But he is pretty close to perfect for me. The only problem is he doesn't see me that way. When he describes his taste in girls I come pretty damn close to being perfect for him, but he would never see me that way because of our friendship. We've become so close recently that I've become a sister to him. Hence the unrequited part.

I'm not going to be melodramatic and say that my life sucks because he doesn't like me. Truth be told I'm happier now having him being a major part of my life then I was before and I'd hate to have him not in my life at all. It just sucks that someone I like so much doesn't like me. I'll continue to look at other boys though because I'm sure I'll find someone who likes me as much as I like them. Who knows what will happen?

So to whoevers reading this unrequited feelings aren't fun, that I'll admit, but keep hope you'll find a requited love eventually. The world is a mysterious and wonderful place. You can never know what is just around the corner.

Cheers!!