The unrequited

Hey,

Another day, another thing to rant about. The topic of today is unrequited feelings. I'm not going to say love because personally I don't think you have to believe you are in love with someone to be hurt when you know they don't return your feelings.

There is a guy, an amazing guy, who is in my life at the moment, but not in the way I want him to be in my life. He has always been a friend, the sort of friend you see every couple of months and whose company you enjoy but who you aren't that close to. Then, he was having problems with his girlfriend and he needed someone to talk to, someone to help him sort out what he was feeling. I was there and I'd like to think I was a good friend. I helped him out and he realised that the relationship he was in was over. I didn't think of him as anything more than a friend at that stage.

Since then I see him at last twice most weeks and we speak basically everyday. Slowly but surely I've begun to develop feelings for him. I can't help it and now I'm struggling to hide it. He is gorgeous looking, something I've always admitted in a kind of distant way and only recently have started to fully appreciate. But it's not how he looks, it's his personality, his sweetness, his sense of humour. It all comes down to how well we mesh together. He isn't perfect. But he is pretty close to perfect for me. The only problem is he doesn't see me that way. When he describes his taste in girls I come pretty damn close to being perfect for him, but he would never see me that way because of our friendship. We've become so close recently that I've become a sister to him. Hence the unrequited part.

I'm not going to be melodramatic and say that my life sucks because he doesn't like me. Truth be told I'm happier now having him being a major part of my life then I was before and I'd hate to have him not in my life at all. It just sucks that someone I like so much doesn't like me. I'll continue to look at other boys though because I'm sure I'll find someone who likes me as much as I like them. Who knows what will happen?

So to whoevers reading this unrequited feelings aren't fun, that I'll admit, but keep hope you'll find a requited love eventually. The world is a mysterious and wonderful place. You can never know what is just around the corner.

Cheers!!

Introduction

Hey all you internet people,

Okay so I'm a nobody and thus no one will actually be reading this, but I need a place to rant. When I say rant I don't mean in an emo, life sucks and nothing will ever get better way. I just like to talk (write in this case) about things in general, the way the world works and how it effects me.

I love to write, always have, always will so writing a blog comes naturally to me. Words, black letters on a white page, is the way I chose to address the world, my medium. Anyway, so I've been reading italktosnakes and hayleyghoover's blogs for a while now (I love fiveawesomegirls) and I've always felt I could relate to there mutual belief that writing is the most natural way for them to communicate. I guess I could say that they are the inspiration for this blog. So if they ever stumble across this, you touched the mind and heart of an Australian girl who also loves the English language and for that I'm so very grateful.

Now on to blog:

So I've come to the conclusion that everyone hates assignments and uses whatever medium they can to avoid them. Yes, I'm clearly a revolutionary thinker. Disregarding the Captain Obviousness of this statement, the point is I have a 3,000 word contract assignment due on Monday which I have yet to start because all of a sudden Youtube, Facebook, blogspot and Gossip Girl have become the most important things on the planet. Normally I'm a doer rather than a gonna (good old Burken bread add) but wireless internet makes procrastination that much easier. Before me procrastinating would involve reading a book, writing down ideas for a story (in my last year of school I actually wrote an entire novel due to procrastinating) but now its about wasting time in the least productive way possible. *Sigh* The internet; both a heaven and a hell.

As I've just created a blog I guess that means my procrastination will continue for some time,

See you bai

Clowie